Chest, Arms and Random Thoughts

Since my arrival I have been feeling what I can only describe as numb and only just figured out why. I suppose the first few days can be attributed to the culture shock I described earlier, but even now after the initial shock has wore off, I still feel unsettled. I was working out at the gym today which is were my random thoughts usually start to surface and make sense in my head, when I remembered how happy I was in Chicago and started to reminisce.
I seemed to have everything I wanted and nothing more. I was content. Now I don't have that feeling which is why I'm unhappy and unsettled. I have started to question whether or not I will ever find that kind of happiness again. I'm wondering what exactly it was that made me happy there — was it the friends I had made? the city I lived in? my independence? my career? or even just the idea of challenging myself by living in an unfamiliar environment — or a combination of all of this? I won't know until I return from my travels to settle down and start all over again. "Starting all over again" sounds daunting but I'm happy in the knowledge that I know what it takes to get what I had.